Thursday I received good news, actually it was great news. If you read my post a month ago titled ” I Wait” you read that I was going through more eye problems. I did not put the actual diagnosis in that post. for those of you who are interested in knowing what was wrong with my eye I had vitreous detachment. Vitreous detachment is usually not sight threatening but instead of it behaving in the normal way I had a different scenerio, I had the the part that says “every once in a while”. I copied this from the National Eye institute website for anyone who is interested… Most of the eye’s interior is filled with vitreous, a gel-like substance that helps the eye maintain a round shape. There are millions of fine fibers intertwined within the vitreous that are attached to the surface of the retina, the eye’s light-sensitive tissue. As we age, the vitreous slowly shrinks, and these fine fibers pull on the retinal surface. Usually the fibers break, allowing the vitreous to separate and shrink from the retina. This is called vitreous detachment. Although a vitreous detachment does not threaten sight, once in a while some of the vitreous fibers pull so hard on the retina that they create a macular hole to or lead to retina detachment. Both of these conditions are sight-threatening and should be treated immediately. If left untreated, a macular hole or detached retina can lead to permanent vision loss in the affected eye… (the bold part is what my problem has been)
I also wrote another post 3 weeks ago called “What’s The Plan.” That day was actually the worst day of my eye problems. and by then I was seeing through what looked like mud and seeing lightning type flashes. Everything started looking up the day after I wrote that post. My upward swing started with – I did finally find peace by turning it all over to Jesus. By that Thursday I began to think maybe I was starting to see a little better. On Friday morning I knew I was most definitely seeing better. Later in the day on Friday I was grocery shopping, as I was paying for my groceries a large black dot appeared in my vision. It was the darkest black I have ever seen in my life and it was very frightening. I called the doctor and was told I needed to be seen immediately. So I made what seemed like a very long drive to the retina doctor’s office. At that visit I was told that what was pulling on my retina was pulling very hard now and that I should be seen weekly now so we could monitor my eye more closely to watch for retina detachment. I was sent home with a list of things to watch for and told if any of those happened to call the doctor immediately.
I know that does not sound like things got better but if you keep reading you will see they actually did. Through it all I was able to keep my peace all week and other than the black dot I did think maybe I was seeing a tiny bit better. Things were blurrier but not as distorted looking as before. The feeling of looking through mud seemed to be going away.
The best part of the week came this past Thursday, which was my next weekly appointment. At the appointment I went through the usual pictures and eye charts and I was put in a dark room to wait for my eyes to dilate so the doctor could examine them. While I wait they usually have the pictures of my eyes up on a computer screen where I can see them. I usually begin to self diagnose myself while I wait. I will add that usually I diagnose my self wrong. As I looked at the pictures and my self diagnosis, I noticed it looked as if my retina had went back down where it belonged and was no longer being pulled up. Like I said before I am always wrong on my self diagnoses so as I was tucking that little glimmer of hope away the door opened and in walked my doctor. She looked at the images and said “Your right eye looks as if it is healed, the disk that was pulling on your retina has popped off. Then she examined my eyes. After her examination of my eyes she said everything looked good and then she said again, your right eye has healed all by itself. I was so shocked. You would think I would be used to this sort of thing by now and not have been so surprised because this was not the first time my prayers have been answered. But I could still barely believe that my eye had healed so quickly and that all I needed to do was make visit my regular eye doctor for a pair of glasses to clear up the blurriness. What a difference had been made in only a week! Wow that was such good news! I pretty much floated out of the Doctors office and home.
I know I have received yet another blessing from God. I also have to mention that I do not believe the eye healed by itself as the doctor said. I believe God healed it. He also gave me the peace and the strength I needed to get through it all. What was his plan in all this?? Well I still don’t fully know but something I have noticed is that when things are going well I tend to get away from Him. Not totally away but I begin to rely on myself a little bit too much and I start to make things more about my plan instead of his. I also now have a better perspective on a few more things he had been telling me to do. It seems rather odd but I also noticed when I lost the ability to see clearly through my own eyes I began to see things a LOT more clearly through His eyes.
Thanks for reading my blog and God bless you 🙂
Open my eyes that I may see wonderful things in your law. Psalm 119:18