Keep putting the bricks in the wall. That seems to be what God keeps putting in my mind these past few weeks.
The past 7 weeks I had the privilege of leading a woman’s Bible study at my church. Why God would chose me for this job is beyond my comprehension. I have only been walking this journey with Jesus for about 2 and 1/2 years so I do not know my Bible very well. I also feel like most of the woman who joined the class were probably way more experienced for the job than me. I do not like speaking in public and have suffered from social anxiety for the past 20 years to the point I get sick at my stomach just thinking about a room full of people. Just being an attendee in a class is really hard for me.
In the class we studied the book of Nehemiah. In the book of Nehemiah, Nehemiah is told his beloved city of Jerusalem’s walls have been broken down and the gates have been burned with fire. He was so very saddened by this that he wept, fasted and prayed for days, He confessed the sins of his ancestors and asked God to have favor on them again, reminding God of his promise that if they would return back to him and obey, He would bring them all back home.
Nehemiah found real out quick if you pray about something to God that is in line with His plan you may get what you pray for. The next thing he knows God has given him a very big job. God sends Nehemiah to the Judah to to rebuild the wall around Jerusalem and fill the city back up with all the people who had been put out of it for over 70 years.
When God gave Nehemiah the job of building the wall his earthly job was the very honored position of Cup-bearer to King Artaxerexes. I would assume he was not trained in the engineering it would require to construct a wall of that magnitude, but does Nehemiah argue with God and say he is not equipped for the job? No he does not. Without question Nehemiah goes to the city and heads out into the night. He surveys the wall to see what needs to be done and then he sends for the people that are needed to help him with this huge job of rebuilding the wall.
A few officials try to stop Nehemiah from building the wall in the beginning but he says “The God in Heaven will give us success”, and he believes it. As the wall progressed the officials and others plotted against Nehemiah to try to stop the building. The workers became tired but kept going on to the point they had to work one handed with a weapon in the other. Through all obstacles they still kept their faith in God and the wall was rebuilt and the city restored. That is the short version of the story, for the full version you can read the whole story by clicking here.
I love how Nehemiah never ever questions God’s plan. He just keeps moving forward no matter how big the challenges became. He kept plugging along one brick at a time doing what God told him to do, never having any doubt or letting anyone else’s negativity sway him from the job God gave him to do. He fully believed that God had it covered.
What faith! Wouldn’t it be great if we could all have faith like that?
it seems like here lately God has asked me to do a few things that to me just seem so odd he would pick me to do the job. I few have been really way out of my comfort zone. I think to myself why would he ask me to do that? I think that I am not good enough or smart enough and try to talk myself and God out of it. I wish I could be more like Nehemiah was and just trust God the minute he asks. If only I would just get my instructions from God, not question Him, trust he will equip me and then just go do it.
With God and I the conversation goes something like this… Hey T I want you to lead a Bible study…. Say what??…..You heard me T, I want you to lead a Bible study….But God why me? I do not have the knowledge to lead a Bible study….but you don’t need any knowledge because I have it covered… Hey God I have a better idea, I think I will just join a Bible study as a participant, how does that sound? … really T I have another plan look at that Bible study book that you just got for that class you plan to join. How about you do the study with the ladies at your church?… are you kidding God? No way I can’t do that I don’t know my Bible that well…You don’t need to know your Bible well… But now that you mention it this does look like something that our church members would be interested in…. Okay T, so do it then…. But God why me? I don’t like speaking in front of people … But you can do it…. But I don’t know what I will say to the class….Well do it anyway…. But God I will turn red and I will get sick at my stomach and, and, and,.. Just do it T it will be fine, I got this covered… Okay fine, I will do it but I am sure the Pastor will never let me lead a Bible study. I will ask him and if he says yes then I will do it, but I am pretty sure he will say no because I do not know anything about the Bible or leading a class… you ask him T I will take care of the details…Okay God I will ask though I am not sure I like this idea at all…No worries T, like I said, I got this covered.
Actually that is a true story and as you have probably figured out my Pastor said yes. No I am not crazy and no I did not hear a booming voice coming out of the sky saying “T have a Bible study”, but I did feel it inside my heart. God and I wrestling around in there going back and forth him trying to convince me and reassure me and I trying to change his mind. If God has spoken to you then you know exactly what I am talking about. I am sure you know as I do God is quite persistent
This seams to becoming the story of my life. Lately every time I turn around he is asking me to do something that scares me to death. Thankfully not one time has he left me hanging. This week was the ending of our 7 week Bible study and I am happy to say nothing awful happened. Actually I think everything good happened. The ladies kept coming back week after week. I realized it was not my Bible study, it was OUR Bible study and it was to be led by God. We laughed and we cried as we shared Gods word. I found out I did not need any Bible knowledge at all because the study of God’s word filled all our heads with the knowledge that we were all there to learn. The only thing I had to do was just show up for the job which I think was just the job of getting us all together. God took care of the rest.
Every time I step out of my comfort zone for God I get some sort of unexpected blessing.
I learned yet again I do not have to be equipped for the job all I have to do is just show up. God has it covered.
I found it quite cool that Nehemiah seemed to have kind of the same set of circumstances as me. Actually he has the same set we all do. He had a job to do and he did it with Gods help. Though I may never do anything spectacular as building a wall or city, the same rule applies…We all have a job to do, we all must believe and trust in God and the job will get done.
We are all here to work on our own little piece of the wall that God has given us to build. We all must keep putting the bricks in the wall one brick at a time. He gives us all jobs to do we are all here to to do our part in building God’s great kingdom.
Is God asking you to do something you feel unequipped to do? He will equip you. You can anything he asks if you rely on Him. So what are you waiting for? Tell Him yes and just show up, God will take care of the technicalities.
How cool is that? 🙂
Want to read the story of Nehemiah? click here –> Nehemiah
Galatians 4:19 My dear children for whom I am again in the pains of childbirth until Christ is formed in you.
Thank you for reading and God bless you 🙂