A 31 Day Series on Hushin’ My Mouth:
I am doing something new here on my blog this month. For the month of October I have joined up with The Nester and 1200 other writers for a 31 day online writing challenge. The challenge is to write every day on the same topic.
My topic is “31 Days of Hushin’ My Mouth.” For those of you who know me in person you know I have a bit of a problem doing that and I also have a bit of a hard time shutting off my mind at times too. I signed up to do this challenge just last night so I am actually a day late in getting started. I saw it a few days ago and I wanted to do it the minute I saw it but figured there was no way I would be able to think of a thing to write about but then last night I went to the website again and the next thing I knew I had signed up. I then played around on picmonkey.com and made the required button for the link up (though I did not know it yet). While I was looking through the different pictures I saw these cute little lipstick prints and I put a set on my button for a minute and then the words 31 Days of Hushin’ My Mouth popped in my head so I typed it on. Don’t even ask me why I saved the button because at the time I really had no intention of ever using that button or topic but then this morning something happened…which will be my first post which you will read about below.
Since I have written this post and now have hit the publish button I guess I am all in. Maybe by the end of the series I will be better at hushin’ up so that I can be better at hearing what God is trying to tell me…anyway now today I am all excited about this Are you excited?! If your not feeling that the excitement at this announcement then come back next month when its all over and done or if you would like to join us and take the challenge yourself you can click here.and sign up.
Without further ado…
Day 1: I am Beautiful
This morning I was sitting in front of the mirror blow-drying my hair when I happened to catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror (it is a full length mirror). Every single morning I sit in front of this mirror fixing my hair and makeup never really looking at myself to closely but today I did. Today I decided I looked fat. I really am bigger lady and most of the time I am okay with that. Lately because of health reasons I have been taking better care of myself and I am actually smaller than I was a few months ago so you think I would have noticed that but no not today. Today I felt disgusted by what I saw in the mirror.
So there was sitting there looking at myself, feeling fat and the next thing that happened is right there before my eyes wrinkles appeared on my face that I never noticed before, followed by age spots, a nice red pimple on my cheek, and before I knew it I started thinking of things I forgot to do yesterday, and within a matter of minutes I was not only fat but I was ugly, incompetent and sure enough the next thing I knew my past started knocking on my door….
Did I see that coming? No I did not.
I spent a lot of years with not a lot of self confidence caused by things in my past. Over the last few years I have started opening up and facing my past and realizing that I really do like me now.
So there I was this morning looking in the mirror and then all the sudden I didn’t like me.
After a good cry I finished getting ready and headed out the door to work. I started my car and Mike Weaver from the band Big Daddy Weave was speaking on the radio. He just so happened to be giving a testimony about how he had been on a diet and lost 90 pounds. He went on to say how his weight loss attracted a lot of attention and people from all over gave him praise for a job well done. He said he only had a few pounds left to lose to get to his goal but he did not lose it… Soon after he did not reach his goal he began feeling like a failure and soon he gained all the weight back. He fell into a pit of sadness and one day he ended up on his garage floor in a heart wrenching cry out to God in which God spoke back to him telling him that He created him and that He loved him and that he was beautiful. From this talk with God he wrote the words to the song Redeemed.
They then they played the song…..
So there I was driving down the road this morning (For some reason I seem to have a mirror/car theme going this week,(see previous post))….. with this testimony and now the song playing, the sky was beautiful blue and the sun was shining so brightly over the country side. It was a perfectly beautiful morning created by God and I felt like He made it just for me today.
Though the words of the song were playing in the background God’s voice was speaking to me loudly.
So I hushed
And then I heard his words speaking to me….
“You are worth so much more than that”…. “You are beautiful you are wonderfully made”… “you were created by me.”
“You do not honor me by cutting yourself down”…”Look at yourself; you have a beautiful smile and a beautiful heart. You give others compassion and love but you do not give the same to yourself.”
“Lift up your head and put on that smile that I gave you and cherish you like I cherish you. Don’t say your not pretty, don’t think your not good enough or smart enough or not worthy enough! I made you!”
“Look at the beauty surrounding you this morning, I created it and guess what? The same hands that created that are the same hands that created YOU.”
So that’s it, that is what I heard when I Hushed my mouth today, I can’t wait for tomorrow 🙂
Thank you so much for reading my post today. I have one more thought before I go….Did it ever occur to you that God created YOU too?
All posts in this series can be found here ->31 day writing challenge