So its day 3 of the 31day blog challenge and I am sitting here at the keyboard wondering if I will be able to pull off another day of writing. I have no idea what to write about today…. Hmmmm…. I got nothin’
I guess I could tell you about how I almost had a car accident today….
This is what happened – Today it is a beautiful fall day, the weather is just a tiny bit chilly, the sky is a dark blue and the leaves are starting to turn colors with just a few of them falling and blowing around on the road. I had my sunroof open and my radio turned up loudly and singing along to Sidewalk Prophet’s new song “Save My Life.” Now that I think about it I find it a bit ironic that I almost get in a terrible car wreck at the same time as song called Save my Life is playing on the radio.
I was driving and singing…..
Tell me what I need to hear
Tell me that I’m not forgotten
Show me there’s a God who can be more than all I ever wanted….. (those were words from the song)
All the sudden I see a flash of green coming fast to my right and realize a Green SUV is barreling down the road that is meeting up with the one I’m on looking as if he is going to pull out on the highway in front of me without stopping. I am going about 50 miles per hour… I have no time to stop…. “Is he gonna stop?!?” flashes through my mind as at the same time my mind has already answered back, “NO HE IS NOT!”
There is no avoiding the accident. I have no time to stop and he is already part way in the road right in front of me. I swerve into the empty oncoming lane and as I do it another thought flashes through my mind, “I am on a curve in the wrong lane is anyone coming toward me on the other side of that curve?” By now my car goes off the pavement on the left side of the road because he is still coming out, seriously am I driving and invisible car today?? I am partially in the grass and then on the road back and forth and somehow I manage to get back fully on the road and somehow back into my own lane. During all this I am seeing the other vehicle still coming on the side of my car knowing that at any second there will be the impact of him hitting me…
The Impact never came…
I am past him now looking in my rear-view mirror just in time to see him drive away as fast as he can.
Then it hits me… anger,
“WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU DOING YOU IDIOT?!” came roaring out of my mouth. And then at that same instant my body went into that Jellowy like feeling as the adrenaline rush I had been in for the last 20 seconds left my body. I was then shocked and like all…”What??”… “There is no way on this earth that I could have avoided an accident! What just happened here?” By now I had to pull over to the side of the road because I was so jellowy that I couldn’t drive.
I sat there on the side of the road for a few minutes just thinking about what had just happened. One second I am singing and in the snap of a finger I almost crash and it is all over with in less than 20 seconds. Wow things sure can change in such a short time! There could have been a very serious accident. Both myself, the driver of the other car, and possibly anyone else who could have been coming around one of those corners at that time could have been seriously injured or possibly killed. I still can not fathom any way it was at all possible for that accident to not happen but yet it didn’t happen. I sat there on the side of the road a few minutes longer thanking God and realizing just how quickly people’s lives can change and also how quickly we can die.
I have a very good friend right now who has stage 4 lung cancer her doctor told her that there is no cure for her illness. There are treatments to shrink the cancer and to help to prolong her life. No matter what the doctors tell her she keeps living her life as if she will live a normal amount of time. She believes she will live a long time and better yet God will cure her and I believe that too. As I write this today I wonder, what is a normal amount of time to live?? None of us are guaranteed anything. She has a cancer that some may say is a death sentence, yet I could have died today in less than 20 seconds and I am not even sick. We are all dying and we have been since the day we were born.
And that prompts me to I ask you question….if you were to die today where would you go? I will ask myself the same question though I already know the answer. If I died today I fully believe I would go to Heaven.
My next thought is, of all the people I know who do not believe in Jesus, or who do believe yet haven’t given their lives to him….What if they died today, where would they go?? ya you know the answer as do I.
I had to stop writing for a while after I wrote that because that thought hit me like a ton of bricks and makes me really sad.
Sobering thoughts today here on the blog.
If this is true why do I not tell more people about Jesus? The truth is its uncomfortable sometimes. I always think that people do not want me to tell them this stuff or that they may be offended and become angry. Who knows maybe you are reading this right now and offended. I may even get flack for this post in the comments or a few emails that is IF I am brave enough to publish this.
Why do I feel this way? Well I used to not believe and I did not want some Christian telling me what I did not care to hear. I felt like I was being judged when someone told me about Jesus. I was never against anyone who was a Christian I just thought to each his own and let them believe what they believed and I wanted to be left alone to believe what I believed. My in-laws were Christians and I would even pray with them when they prayed at dinner to not make waves, I never really told them I did not believe though they did all know I did not go to church. I even went to church a few times as a kid and also an adult. I thought I believed for a short amount of time but never really understood the whole God/Jesus thing (read here for that story). I look back now that I do understand and I know its that I just never knew about the relationship with Jesus part. Nobody ever told me about that part, I wonder why? Maybe because they thought I did not care to hear it…Yes I know I just made a full circle but that brings me right back to this…because I did not care to hear it I think it most likely made them uncomfortable and they did not want to offend me. I could be wrong and its past now, this is just some of my ponderings that go on in my head that just happen to be coming out on the keyboard today.
AAAANYWAYYY… back to the not having a wreck story…. Today I was driving down the road singing and in the snap of a finger I could have died. What if I would have died and nobody had ever told me that all I had to do was ask Jesus to lead my life and accept him as my savior that I would be saved? What would have happened to me if I were not saved? I would have went to Hell.
Harsh I know but I have to say it because whether or not we choose to have Jesus as our savior IS a matter of life and death.
Which leads me to one last question. If having Jesus in a person’s life is a matter of life and death then why would I not be opening my mouth to tell someone about him? It is much better to be uncomfortable and take a chance on making people angry than the consequences of not doing it.
I think today God wants me to not hush my mouth sometimes. I think maybe sometimes I tend to hush it to much in the wrong areas. I think he wants me to open it up and tell people about Jesus no matter how uncomfortable it makes me feel and not worry about if it will make the other person uncomfortable or offend them. I need tell them, it’s my job while I am on this earth. Plus since Jesus has been in my life I am alive more than I ever was before. He is the best thing that ever happened to me. Why in the world would I not want to share that??!
Well that’s all I have for today. I thought I had nothing to write but seems like once again I have a whole page full.
I am sorry if this post seems so harsh but that is what God showed me today to share on day 3 of 31 Days of Hushin’ My Mouth. I decided to leave this post just as I wrote it, so that means no looking back to proofread because I don’t dare want to chance rethinking what I wrote, woohoo I am feeling brave today 😉 Come back tomorrow for day 4, your guess is as good as mine as to what the subject will be 😀
Thank you for reading today,
P.S. If you do not know Jesus, you may leave a comment and I will try my best to help you get the answers you need. There is also a link right –> here that has a lot of info about him too.
If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. Romans 10:9
To read the rest of the posts in this series you can click here – 31 Days of Hushin’ My Mouth