Every day I wake up with a song stuck in my head – Today I woke with 2!
I hope you enjoy them both as much as I do – Happy Music Monday!
Have a great week!
Every day I wake up with a song stuck in my head – Today I woke with 2!
I hope you enjoy them both as much as I do – Happy Music Monday!
Have a great week!
So today I set down to read my Bible and the minute I picked it up I had a cat meowing in my face. I gave him some attention and then picked my Bible back up about the same time my phone dinged informing me that I had a text message. I answered the message and then in came another.
Half an hour later I was back with my Bible in hand, the sound turned off on my phone, and then into the room walks my husband telling me about some neighborhood excitement going on across the street. It seems that two work trucks were accidentally running over stuff and backing into trees. That for sure was something I had to go see.
About 15 minutes later I was back in my office with my Bible open just long enough for the other cat to jump into my lap and meow in my face just as the music I had been playing on Pandora stopped leaving a message across the screen that said, ‘Lost Connection’.
Suddenly those words seemed to have a whole new meaning.
Not only had I lost connection to music on Pandora but I also seemed to have lost connection with what I was really after this morning, my connection with Jesus.
This time was the time I had reserved for just Jesus and I and all the distractions were keeping me away from Him.
I know that Jesus is with me all day but this time is our special time. This is the time I reserve to study the Bible and just hang out with only Him.
Jesus is not only the person who leads my life, but he is also my best friend and without Him I can’t really do life very well and tend to flop around like a fish out of water.
It still amazes me that Jesus wants to hang out with me too. Actually, he wants to hang out with me so much that he will come find me if I am distracted. Like today when he gently reminded me of my lost connection with a message on my Pandora screen.
Have you lost connection with Jesus today? Well guess what?! It’s not lost! He’s been right there beside you all along, all you have to do is say hi.
I hope you have an awesome week! Oh and before you leave check out this awesome praise song – Waiting here for you by Christy Nockels. 🙂
I never went to church as a child or adult other than occasional visits. When I was in my late 20’s I had been attending a church for a few months and one day I found myself walking down the aisle during a church service because I had just given my life to Jesus. I didn’t really understand the whole, ‘give your life to Jesus’ thing other than I knew that I had just been ‘saved’ and I was excited and happy about it!
Shortly after I was saved I was informed that because I was now saved, I could also become a member of the church. I hadn’t even realized until that moment that I wasn’t already a ‘member’ of the church. I also soon found out that but there was a catch to being a member of the church.
To be a member of the church I had to be baptized.
I was still pretty new to all of this, and getting dunked underwater in front of everyone seemed horrifying to me. I really wanted to be a member of the church but did NOT want to get baptized!
And to make matters worse someone told me that if I didn’t get baptized then I couldn’t get into heaven!
Being saved by Jesus had somehow now turned into me freaking out about church membership, baptisms, and getting into Heaven. None of this stuff had even been on my mind when I had asked Jesus to come into my life.
If this was what being saved felt like, I didn’t want to be saved anymore. I had felt a whole lot safer before the whole saving ordeal had happened!
Oh and also now added to the pot was this — my 7-year-old daughter had also been saved in Sunday school and she was scheduled to get baptized with me. The pressure was on and there was no way I could back out!
So the baptism happened and the joy I had felt at the beginning about being saved by Jesus was now lost under a huge weight.
Not only was the robe they made me wear to be baptized in heavy material that when wet made me feel as if I were coming out of the water with a couple of bags of rocks attached to my back. But it added to the fact that I now felt weighed down with the overwhelming task I had in front of me to keep it together. I felt like a fake and knew I had to be good so as not disappoint God or anyone in the church.
After I was baptized I barely went church anymore. I felt like a huge failure and I eventually walked completely away from church.
The worst thing of all is that I also walked away from God. I felt like somehow I had been part of some crazy bate and switch scam and I decided that God wasn’t real.
I stayed that way many years but then I saw my father-in-law die and that was the day I met the real Jesus once again.
As my father-in-law took his last breath his face suddenly became peaceful, I can never begin to explain what happened, except that God let me see my father-in-law as he was entering his new home in heaven and the peace surrounding him felt as if it were surrounding me. There was this overwhelming feeling of peace and love and it felt like it was all put there just for me to grab hold of. I remember going home that night with the loss of a loved one, yet I felt like I had gained something huge – I knew at that moment that God was real and that He truly loved ME! Unconditionally.
I had been told by well-meaning Christians my whole life that I should go to church and somehow I had grasped on to the idea that if I didn’t go to church I wasn’t good enough for God. I also thought I had to be good when just being who I was was good enough.
A hospital room at one of the darkest times of my life is where Jesus came and got me. For no other reason than because, He loved me… just as I was. There wasn’t a church building or baptism required to be a member of his family and the only strings attached were for me to believe in him and come into his arms.
John 3:16 says, “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”
Being saved by Jesus means that Jesus loves me so much that he gave up his life for me so I don’t have to be perfect.
The gift of Salvation is a God’s gift to ALL of us.
His gift is for any of us to take no matter who we are or where we are in life. It doesn’t have to be opened in a church building and we don’t have to be a member of anything to receive it. Once we accept it we are part of the family and will live in Heaven with him one day
I did eventually find a church that I now call my church home and I did even get re-baptized when I felt led by Jesus to do it not because I was forced to do it.
I love Jesus and the family of believers he has placed in my life and it’s good to have those people in my life because they help make that connection to Him even stronger. We worship together and learn about him together. We even help lift each other up in our times of struggle. So a church family is a good thing to have.
I did not share this story to condemn any church or denomination, I shared it because I have met up with several people now who have had this same experience as me. I want others who read this to know that no matter who you are or where you are at you can come to Jesus just because He loves you and wants YOU right where you are.
If you already have accepted Jesus’ gift of salvation that is awesome! If you want to share it with others and you are attaching strings to it, please stop doing that!
‘For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.’ John 3:17
Can you believe it’s already Monday again?!!!
The older I get the faster time seems to fly by.
Speaking of time flying by, sometimes I think its good to slow down not only during the moments we have right now but also to slow down and take a look back at how far we have come. I find it amazing at how things that once were hard have actually helped me to become the more secure in who I am today. Today before I share the song I want to share something I wrote in August of 2014.
Before we get started here is a little background on what was going on the day I wrote it – I was on vacation in Mexico and had suddenly discovered a black hole directly in the center of my vision in one of my eyes. At that time I also already had a blind spot in my other eye that hadn’t been very noticeable with both eyes open. Now with blindness in both eyes, I was in a full-blown panic. I was laying in a beach chair beside the ocean, real live storm clouds looming over the water but a larger storm was going on inside my mind. I could not bear to open my eyes because I didn’t want to see the blind spots. In the middle of it all God spoke peace to me.
Lately, I have been thinking a lot about the peace of God and how he can totally give peace in the middle of some of our hardest moments in life. This was one of my hardest moments and God made it peaceful. Sometimes in life we really can’t do anything about our situation except give it to God.
Okay so much for sharing an old blog post I seem to not be able to stop typing and it now looks as if I am writing a new one…
Here is the post form Aug. 2014…
I Still See
The wind is raging, storm clouds looming over the waves and in my mind.
I see where I don’t see and it frightens me.
The waves crash the shore and inside my mind they crash my sanity.
Fear overwhelming, the roar of the ocean matching the roar in my mind
Threatening dark clouds in the distance much like the dark blur obscuring my vision of the beauty before me.
The beauty…you are so big you created this
I feel so small right now,
I know you are so much bigger than me and even more bigger than the small blur.
I feel the breeze starting to cool as the storm in the distance calms the storm that is raging inside calms too.
The blur still threatens to get in the way but you won’t let it.
Even if I can’t see… I still see YOU perfectly.
via I Still See
Now for today’s Music Monday song
“Even if” by MercyMe
Even if what we are praying for isn’t seeming to end, our hope is still in Jesus. He will always be there for us and with Him we can move on. Even in the middle of the storm we can always find Jesus right beside us.
Thanks so much for coming by the blog today, I hope in some way what I’ve shared can inspire you or help you to find the peace you are looking for. Jesus is the only answer I really know of for perfect peace inside and I hope if that is what you are looking for you will know him too. If you want more info about knowing Jesus you can click -> here.
I’ve had a lot on my mind lately but have been struggling to find the words to write about it so instead, I have remained silent. Today I have decided that I just can’t keep silent anymore and will let the words flow as they may… no corrections will be made so please forgive the typing errors. Also – If you are alive and breathing then you’ve most likely seen or heard what I am getting ready to talk about and I have no idea what side of this you are on but hopefully you know me enough that what I write here comes from my heart and is said with love and that I am not trying to stir the pot in a bad way at all. Only love lives here on this blog ❤
Lately, the world seems to have gone a little crazy…make that a LOT crazy! People seem are so divided on everything and I’m really quite sick of it. Everywhere I turn I see people hurting others and making hate-filled comments on social media about everything you could ever imagine! I won’t bother listing them all here because I am sure you have already heard them all too. If you can name it then I am pretty sure someone will most likely have a problem with it and say something negative.
Lately, it also seems like everyone is right… (according to themselves) And everyone who they think is wrong needs to be told publically about it in a mean way.
Am I right?… Or maybe I am wrong…
Does it really matter who is right or wrong? We all have an opinion and we have a right to have that opinion, but is it really necessary to voice that opinion against one another all of the time?
What if we all just opened up our eyes one day and actually tried to really see the people we are around day in and day out as a fellow human being and then we just went ahead and loved them for who they are… no matter what they believe?!
Right now I have about 20 close people I know who are going through some very serious things in their lives. For them, there is a war going on right now and to them, it’s not against another person and it’s not about who’s right or wrong. They have bigger fish to fry than that! So many are fighting very serious things right now, like the loss of a loved one, illnesses, drug and alcohol addiction, homelessness,… seriously… I could list things forever and never end this list! I’m sure you probably have a few of your own things that you could to add.
The struggle is real! and we all really need one another right now!
God didn’t put us here to go through things alone and he especially didn’t put us here to fight against each other!
What if we all just made the decision to become warriors FOR everyone else instead of only for our own agenda?
I’m not sure if today’s song goes with what I wrote today or not, but I really love this song and feel like no matter who we are…we all are… or we will be… warriors at one time or another in our lives. We all have struggles that we have to battle every single day. I know I have been a warrior myself and hope I can say I am for others … No matter how hard we try there is always room for improvement.
Sooooo…..What do ya say, can we all be warriors for the same Team?
Let’s all give LOVE a try!
Here is the song, I hope you enjoy it and it makes you want to join me! – Warrior by Hannah Kerr
9 Two people are better off than one, for they can help each other succeed. 10 If one person falls, the other can reach out and help. But someone who falls alone is in real trouble. 11 Likewise, two people lying close together can keep each other warm. But how can one be warm alone? 12 A person standing alone can be attacked and defeated, but two can stand back-to-back and conquer. Three are even better, for a triple-braided cord is not easily broken. – Ecclesiastes 4:9-12
I hope you have a wonderful day!
Hey there! It’s been a really long time since I’ve been here on the blog. In May my husband and I went on a cruise and we came home tossing around the idea of selling our home and moving into a home that we have been renting out since 2011. We prayed about it and the next thing I knew we were caught iin a whirlwind of excitement. Our summer was spent cleaning up and restoring the home we were moving into and then moving. We have been in our new home for about 5 weeks now and we are just now about finished unpacking. YAY!
Anyway…I didn’t come here today to talk about the move, what I really came here for is to share a song with you. -> Turn My Eyes by Bonray.
Yesterday in my pastor’s sermon he spoke about how different symbols or things bring back memories of things our lives. That got me thinking about a tiny blind spot that I have in my eye. Its been there for about 5 years now and I never really notice it too much, but during the times that I do notice I’m always reminded of the time that I lost my vision in that eye. It was a very frightening time for me and the only way I could have peace was to keep my eyes firmly on Jesus. I didn’t realize it at the time but now looking back I know that it was during that time I learned just how much Jesus loves me. He was with me every step of the way and I know now that he is here to stay. All I have to do is keep my eyes on him.
There is a whole lot more to the story and if you have been a reader of this blog for a while then you have heard the story before, so no need to repeat. If you haven’t heard it then you can head to the archives and find it all there.
I hope you enjoyed the song and that you have a wonderful week.
Oh and one more thing before I go… Did you know that Jesus loves you and that if you are looking for peace all you have to do is call on him and he will give it to you?
Have a great week!
Happy Monday and Happy Spring! Wow, can you believe it’s already Spring?! Since my winter of surgeries and recovery, it seems like the time has been flying by!
Now that I’ve healed I am out and about and doing things again that I hadn’t been able to enjoy in a while. A few weeks ago my husband and I went on a short hike and just the other day we spent some time down at the River which was fun and also very relaxing.
We also volunteered at a few Compassion events which are always fun but now even more fun because I can stand behind the table the whole night if needed!
Two of my grandsons are old enough now to play sports. They played basketball at the beginning of the year and now they’ve just started playing baseball. I absolutely love going to their games and watching them play!
Later today I am going shopping and taking my granddaughter to dance class. The cool thing about this is not only do I get to spend time with my amazing granddaughter but now I am also able to walk through stores and actually spend as much time as I want shopping instead hurrying to get out because it hurts to be there….though now that I think about it taking time in the store may not be such a good thing after all because more time spent in the store means more time to see things I probably don’t need and to spend more money I probably don’t need to spend 😀
Speaking of shopping, I remember when I used to hate long checkout lines! Now I am finding myself standing in long lines doing a happy dance in my head and thanking God for the miracle of my wonderfully awesome and amazing new knees that I can stand on forever and ever and ever! It seems as if my whole perspective on the inconvenience of waiting has changed. I used to hate to wait in line because it hurt to stand but now when I have to wait it gives me time to relax and reflect on where I’ve been and to thank God for all he has done.
This past season of my life has shown me that sometimes even the hard stuff can be a gift and that slowing down and resting is important. Before arthritis wrecked my knees I used to feel like I had to jam pack something into every minute of every day. After being forced to slow down I realize it’s more about the quality of what I do with the time I’ve been given and who I spend that time with that matters most. I’ve learned to say no, I’ve learned to get rid of those things that were not part of God’s plan and enjoy the things that are.
Today’s Music Monday song ‘Breathe by Jonny Diaz is a good one and also a great reminder of taking some time each day to slow down, relax in God’s love, and just breathe.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30
Hey everyone and happy Monday to you!
I started my Monday off by receiving a surprise gift when I opened the curtains.
Not only did it snow again but we also had visitors.
There’s something extra peaceful about freshly fallen snow. Couple that with a family of deer and I would say that God was giving me the exactly what I needed today.
An overwhelming dose of peace.
God alway seems to deliver just what is needed and He always seems to overwhelm me with his perfect timing.
Today’s Music Monday song is Overwhelmed by Big Daddy Weave.
Have a fabulous week!
I just absolutely love this song because it’s so true!
Have a great week!
Some time later, Jesus went up to Jerusalem for one of the Jewish festivals. 2 Now there is in Jerusalem near the Sheep Gate a pool, which in Aramaic is called Bethesda[a] and which is surrounded by five covered colonnades. 3 Here a great number of disabled people used to lie—the blind, the lame, the paralyzed. 5 One who was there had been an invalid for thirty-eight years. 6 When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition for a long time, he asked him,“Do you want to get well?”
7 “Sir,” the invalid replied, “I have no one to help me into the pool when the water is stirred. While I am trying to get in, someone else goes down ahead of me.”
8 Then Jesus said to him, “Get up! Pick up your mat and walk.” 9 At once the man was cured; he picked up his mat and walked. John 5:1-8
I used to be a different person. I used to feel like crap every morning because I used to drink alcohol every night. I remember when God placed it in my heart that I needed to change. He could have immediately taken the crave for alcohol away…but he didn’t. First I had to want to stop. I had to make up my mind to stop and then say, ‘I’m done living like this.” And then I had to be the one to take the first step toward recovery. Once I made the decision that I was going to stop that was the moment he began helping me stop.
He stood beside me constantly during the struggle to quit but I still had to be the one to consciously make the choice to quit every single day. Over time I’ve lost the crave to drink but I still to this day have to be aware of that decision because there are still times in my life that alcohol is placed before me and a glass of wine or a margarita still look quite tasty to me but I do know that quick moment of taste across my lips is just not worth it and will never taste as good as I feel now.
Over the past 6 years I’ve had 5 knee surgeries for torn meniscus and arthritis. I have asked God hundreds of times to cure me. I have placed my hands on my knees and said, “God, please take this pain away and cure me.”
I truly believe he could have instantly cured me, but he still didn’t do it.
I also knew that I could have had knee replacement surgery but I didn’t want to do that.
The surgery seemed really scary and I also knew it would take months before I would get well. I was also afraid of the pain so many people had warned me about. But in the meantime what I didn’t realize is that the pain I would end up in from not having the surgery would be probably just as bad or worse.
Over time I began finding that standing was becoming harder and I couldn’t go to the grocery store or ball games or anything that required a lot of walking without being in excruciating pain. And my balance was gradually going away too.
While I was sitting around being afraid of the surgery the things I worried would happen from the surgery were happening to me anyway!
A few months ago I had a terrible fall in which I landed on my face. That was the day that I finally made the decision to have the surgery.
Knee number 1 was replaced September 19.
It’s been 4 weeks today since the surgery and I woke up this morning realizing that I may finally be over the worst part of it. As expected the past 4 weeks have been really hard and required a whole lot of work on my part. Over the past 4 weeks, I have learned a lot about suffering (I’ll save that for another blog) and I have also learned what it’s like to humble myself and let others take care of me…. I don’t really do that very well.
The biggest thing I have learned is that even though I am the one who makes the decisions about my life sometimes I don’t always choose the right ones. One in particular, was not choosing to have this surgery sooner!
Just like the drinking I had to be the one to make the decision that I truly wanted to get well.
Yes God could have cured me instantly but he didn’t. Instead, he left part of it up to me to decide. Did I want to walk? Yes I did and to do that I was going to have to take the initiative to get up take the first step. I had to put away my worries and say yes to the surgery. And then I had to put in the hard work it would take to get well. Yes God still was the one to do the healing and He was also the one who guided the surgeon’s hands. He was the one who was beside me when I stood up the first time for rehab. He was the one sitting beside me each night when I cried in pain. He was the one pushing me through the exercises and giving me the strength to keep going as I got stronger each day.
Now I am glad God didn’t give me the quick cure I prayed for.
God had a better plan, He gave me new knee but I had to be the one to make the decision to get up and go and get it and now I am stronger because of that.
Now that I have started to see the benefit of my new knee I realize that this wasn’t just about knees. This was about so much more.
There were lessons in trust, trusting that God had this all in his hands if I would just let go and give it to him.
I learned a lot about God’s power and how he gives that power to us to use when we call on him. He is the one who has been pushing me through the physical therapy and His strength is sometimes the only strength I have to just get up in the morning…but I will never ever be able to use it if I don’t make any effort of my own. I can’t just be sitting around waiting when there are things I could be doing, things I know now that God wants me to do. God can do anything and yes He can move mountains, but something I have realized in all of this is that the mountain that may need moving is sometimes my own attitude.