**Correction today 9/30/2012 I re-listened to my pastor’s sermon from last week, the word was ‘worry’ not ‘fear’ as I said in this post, so I wanted to correct that.. Though I still keep my same feelings I wrote here I feel I should correct this since I quoted him wrong.
Fearless in Faith
Sunday my pastor said in his sermon that anything that replaces faith is sin, therefore fear is sin. I have thought about that all week and I know he is right.
How many times have I been scared and held onto fear and felt better? NEVER.
How many times have I put my faith in God and felt better? EVERY single time.
Before I knew God I was afraid all the time, I was afraid to fly, I was afraid of people but yet afraid to be alone, I had social anxiety, was afraid of being sick, afraid of the doctor, I was afraid to take medicine for fear of the side effects, I was afraid of heights, and had claustrophobia, the list goes on and on and on and on…
The social anxiety part was the worst and I almost let it take over my life. I would make up excuses saying I had things to do so I could skip meetings at work. If I managed to stay in a meeting I was miserable the whole time I was there. I also avoided fun things like baby showers, weddings and parties. I only went to the ones I could not get out of. I never told my family or friends about my ‘problem’ and many probably just thought I was a snob.
Since I gave my life to Jesus I have been learning to give my fears to him. I have never been sick much during my life and have not ever went to the doctor a whole lot. The last two and a half years I have had a lot of illnesses. I know in looking back there is no way on earth I would have ever made it through those without giving my fear to God.
Without giving a lot of detail I will just say my illnesses have included a heart issue, a liver issue, knee surgery, hysterectomy & an eye issue. Treatments and tests included drinking scary stuff and going into in scary medical devices. I have had tons of new medications and injections put in my eye. I am not complaining at all, the coolest thing is I made it through all those things with a whole lot of peace, HIS peace. I am not saying I was never scared believe me some of the things gave me panic attacks. I did discover though that worry did nothing at all to help me at all. When I gave it all to Him I was free and full of peace. Another cool thing is I also came out stronger and found many blessings along the way.
I also feel as if I am getting over my social anxiety also. I spoke in front of my church for the children of Compassion. I could not tell you this day what came out of my mouth or if it sounded good or bad. I know God did the speaking that day. All that really matters is God was in control and kids were sponsored.
I have led a Bible study even though I used to be afraid to just sit in the room and attend a study. Yet again God had it under control
I drove to the top of Pikes Peak and looked down at the magnificent view.
Did I mention that I am scared to fly? Well now I am actually enjoying flying. I notice the blessings when I fly now instead of hiding my face and guzzling down wine. I now look out the window. Have you ever seen clouds from above them? The sun still shines up there on a cloudy day. How would I know had I not looked out of the plane?
How many blessings did I use to miss while I was being afraid? Every time I gave a fear to God He not only gave me peace He also gave me an unexpected blessing.
I am not saying I am fearless or will never be afraid again. But I do know now who to give that fear to and when I give it to Him I do feel quite fearless.
I do know that bad things still happen but we have to have faith. Have the faith he will get us through them and he has a really good plan, we just can’t see it yet. God never said he would not give us more than we can handle, but he did say he will get us through it.
Philippians 4:6-7 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.