I have had something deep on my mind for the past several weeks.
Over the past few days it has really came down to me having to make a decision and that decision was hinging on me deciding and knowing without a doubt what it was that God wanted me to do.
I have prayed about it and prayed about it but things seemed really complicated. I thought I knew without a doubt what God wanted me to do at the beginning of all this, but after a while things were not matching up and nothing seemed to be making any sense. I kept praying about it but I finally became frustrated because I just wanted God to just lay it all out nice and clear for me, but that did not seem to be happening.
As many of you know I am a church secretary. A lot of the time when I am working nobody is at the church except for me. So after I finished my work yesterday I decided to sit in the quiet of the sanctuary for a little while and pray.
As I was praying I was feeling frustrated about all the stuff whirling in my head so I said out loud, “God please tell me what is it you want me to do?!” As the words left my mouth, suddenly my eyes caught on a banner that is hanging on the wall in the front of the room….
Praise the Lord…. I went back to my praying… suddenly I saw the banner again… Praise the Lord!
Suddenly the thought occurred to me…. Praise the Lord? Really? Lord is that what you want me to do? Praise you?
No answer… just the banner again with the words now stuck in my head … Praise the Lord!
Praise the Lord…
Praise the Lord…
So I did. I started with praising him for allowing me to have this quiet place to sit in… I looked around and realized how thankful I am for my church and I began praising the Lord for how wonderfully he planted me in this place that has been perfect for me to grow and learn about him. As I praised him for my church I praised him for my job or I would not even have been sitting here in that sanctuary in the first place.
Praise the Lord…
I praised the Lord for his awesomeness in thinking of life, we have kids, grand kids and friends; and not only does he love us but he gave us people who love us and who we can love back… wow! Praise the Lord for his love.
The list kept growing…I can see, I can taste, I can hear, I can smell! How amazing is that when you really think about it? How many different smells, sounds, flavors, and sights are there in the world?? Praise the Lord for Nature, praise him for sunrises, sunsets, wind, rain, flowers, and birds.
Praise the Lord I can sit, I can stand, I can walk, I can breathe…. God is so good!
As I praised him and I suddenly realized a person could never ever run out of stuff to praise the Lord about … Seriously how awesome is that?! How awesome is He?!
The rest of the day it did not matter what I did, the words ‘praise the Lord‘ where etched in my mind. By the end of the day as I was going to bed… I praised the Lord for blessing me with a bed, a pillow, a cold drink of water. When I had trouble sleeping I was praising him for my husband snoring really LOUD beside me 🙂 I never really thought of that snoring as something to praise God about but man am I soooooo thankful that man sleeps beside me every night
When I woke up this morning once again the ‘what do you want me to do about this complicated stuff?’ question came back to my mind.
And when I arrived at work I went to work in the sanctuary once again. As I opened the sanctuary doors there was that banner….Praise the Lord…. “Seriously God, is that really all you can tell me of what you want me to do?” I knew the answer.
So I Praised the Lord. As the day went on I praised him about the Good stuff and I even praised him when there was a lot of not so good stuff.
I still did not have an answer to my dilemma but late this afternoon. After praising the Lord most of the day the thought dawned on me, God has blessed me with so so much, maybe instead of stressing about what he is planning for my life I should just be praising him for all that he does in my life and just let him take care of the the planning?
Oddly shortly after I realized that everything I had been worrying about for weeks suddenly all just came right together as peace washed over me. I can’t explain it but I will take it.
God just amazes me all the time!
Praise the Lord!
I will praise you, Lord my God, with all my heart;
I will glorify your name forever. ~ Psalm 86:12